I've Decided...

I'm stuck. I hate being stuck. I hate knowing that I know exactly where I want to go, but have no idea how to get there... precisely zero ideas. 

What am I stuck at?

Revisions... Revisions Suck!

I think that's going to be my motto for 2018. Revisions Suck! 

Two books. I have two books completely finished.. well the first draft anyways. But now what? 

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As a self-taught self-starter, I have basically educated myself about this whole "author" life. I have researched, and attended the writing events, and dove in head first to learn my lessons as I go... I have learned what is good, bad, and horribly wrong about my process. I learned about the ups and downs of emotions when writing (only to confirm through Youtube that those mood swings not a downward spiral into insanity or a complete mental breakdown, but normal for writers! It comes with the territory.) I've relied on myself to get this far, and now I'm stuck. 

My dilemma? I know what aspects of both books need to change. I have revised my outlines, strengthened them, improved them, found the plot holes, noted the characters that were under developed, highlighted the cliches and tropes. Yet I stare at my screen unable to figure out just how to do it. Do I re-write the whole line/ paragraph/ page/ chapter? What do I keep? What do I get rid of completely? Do I change point of view? Do I alter my characters gender? Maybe I just need to kill someone! (whoa whoa.. I mean a character... let's not get too carried away here!)

I have been sitting on my hands since January, too scared to do much, over thinking, rehashing, and stressing myself out. So now what?

I have finally decided to seek help... Yes, professional. No, not what you're thinking! I've hired a writing coach. 

This was a big step for me. One that I wasn't entirely sure I was ready for, that my book was ready for, or that I was willing to accept defeat. In my mind it was defeat knowing that I was going to allow someone else into the inner workings of my novel this early on. But I've done it!

I hired her through Upwork, an online freelance website. I was expecting all the writing coaches to price themselves out of my comfort zone, but was pleasantly surprised to find really talented and highly versatile writer, editors and coaches available at incredibly decent prices. I have just over a week before I send in my WIP for a developmental edit with her, and then we can begin hashing out my changes, my revisions and the direction I want the book to go. 

I guess what I am trying to say is: Moral of the story, When you are stuck, you are the only one in your way. There is always someone going through something similar. Someone who has experience in this, and someone who you can reach out to for help. In my case, I am paying for that help, but this is a step in my process that has hindered my results for far too long. I have made excuses, I have been stubborn, and I've thought I could do it all myself... but sometimes, it just makes sense to seek help. 

I will be posting about my experience and process with my new coach, as we get to know one another and start this process with my WIP. I will also do a follow up with how to find the right help using a resource such as Upwork, or other freelance websites, what to look for, and what to watch out for, so stay tuned for that.